The Married Life

So that’s how it feels to wait.

So that’s how it feels to get a little bit excited.

So that’s how it feels to ask “What if…?”

So that’s how it feels to say “I could be…”

So that’s how it feels to see just one blue line instead of two.

So that’s how it feels to be a bit disappointed (and made me realized “what more those who are really trying for years???).

After being delayed for three weeks and two pregnancy tests (which were negative) and a plan to go to the doctor tomorrow for a blood test, I got my period last night. I was just very stressed after all, which was my first hunch from the start due to the many ongoings of our lives since August.

Just for everyone’s understanding, the husband and I are not “trying hard to conceive” and neither “trying hard to control”. We are simply going with the flow with regards to this issue (coz everyone keeps asking). We are in no hurry but should God surprises us with a baby, we will welcome him/her with open arms. Time and time again, my say on this will always be: one can always plan a wedding, a marriage and a honeymoon, but having a baby is something you cannot pin on the calendar.

In the 3rd quarter of 2003, I had a cancer scare that led me to undergo a major operation. I do not consider myself religious, but I try to live in the way that my faith teaches me how to live a good and generous life. I will also admit that during the time that I was battling thru my cancer scare, my faith has tremendously strengthened. By the time that the general anaesthesia was injected on me prior to the operation, I just let God lead the way. Fortunately, I woke up after the surgery (I was afraid I would never wake up) and the cancer scare turned benign. Since then, I consciously take care of my health, taking note of everything I feel weird (read: painful) inside my body and most importantly, I believe God gave me grace to continue on.

At the start of 2008, one of my aunts told us that a certain Filipino priest who heals people will be coming to Sydney, Australia for a series of healing masses. That was the first time that I heard of a Fr. Fernando Suarez, a healing priest from the Philippines so they call him. When my aunt asked if I would like to join them when they attend his healing mass, I immediately said yes. For some reason that I don’t know, I initially felt a calling for me to be there even if I don’t know who he really is…I didn’t even check his profile online (it is a habit for me to check online before agreeing to anything).

But on a more substantial note, there are three main reasons why I wanted to be there: (1) Healing of my heart and of my loved ones’ hearts, (2) Good health for me and my husband and (3) Good health of my family, relatives and friends.

A day before we attended Fr. Fernando’s healing mass, I wrote a list of people I wanted to pray for–from family, relatives, friends, neighbors, workmates…and to my husband’s amusement, even the friends I’ve only met online were part of the list I made.

On 14 August 2008, we attended his 7 o’clock healing mass in St. Patrick’s Cathedral in Parramatta after work. We were lucky that my Tita Ma was at the church by 4 o’clock to reserve seats for us as there were several people arriving from work already. By the time we prayed the Holy Rosary at 6:15pm, the church was packed, even the aisles have been occupied.

The healing mass started just before 7:30pm. All eyes were on Fr. Fernando Suarez. I, myself, was in awe of his presence. He looked friendly and approachable but I sense some kind of “holiness” about him.

It was during his homily that I realized that he is “human”. He started off by introducing himself, his background and how he came to be a priest. He also injected jokes throughout his homily and that helped in making all of us relaxed. Believe me, the feeling inside the church was so intense, everyone wanted to be healed.

He emphasized two things during his homily: (1) that he does not heal people, but Jesus is the one healing people and that God is only using him as an instrument and (2) that by attending the Eucharistic Celebration, we are all being healed.

The best part of the homily was when he asked us to put our hands on our forehead, close our eyes and bow our heads–it was then that he prayed his Prayer for Healing. That is one portion of the mass that I will never forget because I felt the Holy Spirit was within us at that time. After the homily, I already felt a certain lightness inside my heart.

After the healing mass, Fr. Fernando’s healing session began. Everyone lined up just to be prayed over by Fr. Fernando. There were people who sat in wheelchairs who were able to walk again…there were people with pain in their body who left the church with no more pain. It was amazing.

While waiting for him to pray over us, I felt kinda scared seeing people lying on the floor after Fr. Fernando has touched them. According to Fr. Fernando, some people fall because of the grace of the Holy Spirit. I wanted to receive the grace of the Holy Spirit, however, for some reason that I don’t know until now, I was hesitant to see myself lie on the floor. When Fr. Fernando was nearly about to pray over us, I managed to tell my cousin who was beside me that “I don’t want to fall.”

The amazing thing that happened next was when it was our time to be prayed over, Fr. Fernando grab my and my husband’s hands and led us to the middle of the altar and asked “Mag-asawa kayo?” (Are you married?”). We answered “Opo” (“Yes”). Then he said “Anong problema?” (“What’s the problem?”), and so I told him “Eto po” (“Here”) pointing to the part of my body where I got operated on. And so he placed his hands on both our heads, then prayed. Then he placed his hands on my abdomen then prayed again. And before we knew it, Chris and I were lying on the floor already. There were assigned catchers but what amazed me was that I didn’t feel falling…when I opened my eyes I just realized my husband and I were lying on the floor. Then I realized, it was the grace Holy Spirit that made us fall and we just let our hearts, minds and souls go. The grace of the Holy Spirit was just so powerful and it chooses you. We were lucky to have been chosen (even if I was hesitant!).

It was the most miraculously thing that has ever happened to me. After what had happened, the part of my body where I got operated on felt as if I got operated on again…and that feeling lasted about an hour. At home, the pain was no longer there! I HAVE BEEN HEALED! Thanks be to God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit!

I’m truly amazed with Fr. Fernando’s healing power. I will probably always ask “How did he knew about our condition?” My only answer to that question was because the Holy Spirit was with him. He is truly gifted and we will forever be grateful to have been touched by his presence.

Other than physically feeling something, my heart has healed enormously. Attending Fr. Fernando’s healing mass has given me and my husband renewed strength, faith, hope and love. We left the church happier and more at peace–we feel truly blessed!

For your understanding please:

It took great consideration whether I should share the story regarding my cancer scare, but in the purpose of sharing my experience during Fr. Fernandos’ healing mass, I had to write about it even if it meant being a bit vague (I’m sorry but I’m not yet ready to disclose the exact details of my health history). I would greatly appreciate it if you could please focus on the miraculous experience we have encountered and not on my health condition.

Photos in this entry are the best photos we have of that night courtesy of a camphone. Of all days, we forgot to bring a proper camera. But I guess, I was just more focused on attending the mass and being healed that the only time I realized that we needed a camera was when I was inside the church!

We had coffee before we head off to work this morning to celebrate our 19th month. In the spirit of trying something new, in this case, a new cafe, we tried cookieman.

I usually write reviews on cafes/restos on a separate entry, but to save you time and money (not to mention space on the internet), let me just say that this was a crappy cafe that served crappy croissant and muffin, and the worst part of all was it served crappy coffee. Not a good way to start the morning, I tell you. I’m not fussy when it comes to food (I eat almost anything edible and I’m not afraid to try different cuisines) but one thing about me is that when the quality of food is less than average, you would definitely hear me say a disgruntled remark. And please, anything but my coffee!!!

Anyway, at least the company was great.

There is no such thing as a bad mood for us even in the mornings. Sleepy and cold and yet we are always ready to make fun of ourselves.

Finally! A decent photograph.

At least their cup says: Life is a journey, take your time and have a cup of coffee, it could be more delightful and joyful than you think.

Cheers to our 19th!

Morning: Dedication of Baby David Gabriel. Congratulations to parents Jonathan and Pam and welcome to the Christian World David!

Lunchtime: Celebration of David’s dedication and the never ending and noisy chitcat of our group.

Afternoon: Surprise roadtrip to Blue Mountains!!!!

Just so we can have hot chocolate and cake at

Thank God for friends and surprise roadtrips!

Friends have been wondering why I’m almost always on a day-off on Fridays. The simplest explanation would be, in my office, an employee is entitled to 2 days-off per month given that he/she is able to render 140 hours. That’s why some weeks I only go to work for four days. I usually take Fridays off coz Mondays are the craziest day at the office so I need to be there.

Anyway, this day-off is the first time in 4 months that I spent by my lonesome (just like old times) because the husband already started work this week (thanks to everyone who prayed and gave their enormous support). I was actually looking forward to another day out with him but surprise surprise, he got called in to start work last Tuesday. So now, I’m back to spending one whole day of “Me” time.

To make my day a little more special I decided to watch Mamma Mia! (I enjoyed it very much) and try out a new cafe named “Cafe Mondeo”.

I’ve been thinking of having coffee at Cafe Mondeo for like a year already but the location of the cafe doesn’t allure me. However with the closing of Starbucks, I thought that today would be the best day to try it out.

I only ordered my usual Cafe Americano and a Caramel Cheesecake.

But I didn’t eat the caramel bit.

I got amused by their chair…do you remember the chair from Pepper Lunch? Now look at Cafe Mondeo’s chair…

Eyeluvit!!!! I swear when I get rich, I’ll get myself someone who can customize my chairs for me and have something carved on it.

Then they have this very big photograph on the wall with a quote that said…

Poetic but very true. =)

I had a very long day today. Slept late last night because we attended Fr. Suarez’s Healing Mass (that’s a different blog altogether as I’m still collecting my thoughts from the wonderful and miraculous thing that has happened to me) and woke up early still because the husband wanted me to prepare breakfast for him and see him off (and I thought I could sleep in late but noooo). Was up at 5:30am, did the laundry while getting dressed, then at 10am I was already at the mall. Home at 3:00pm, went online, cleaned house, folded clothes, prepared dinner, cleaned up the kitchen. Now, we just finished the koreanovela we were watching for the past two weeks or so. Wow, I had a productive day. I feel happy, tired but relaxed! Pwede bang maging tired pero relaxed???? Maybe, coz that’s what I’m feeling right now.

Okay, I’m off. I’m really sleepy now. Need to catch up on lost sleep. Good night and have a a great weekend!